Newness

Just a quick update. I finally cut off my hair today. I think it makes me actually look my age now haha. It hasn't been this short since I was in 8th grade. My dad didn't freak out as bad as I thought lol.

Ketchup

I haven't been on here in forever I think. So lets play ketchup. Just started back school and am already ready to get out lol. Don't get me wrong I actually love school I am just so ready to get my degree. I hopefully start in June to get my LPN thank goodness. Right now I'm just taking filler classes in case I want to get my Bachelor's degree.

On to other fun stuff, Sam and me went to our first college football game. Gators vs. Citadel; it was a blow out. Had to get up at 5:30am to get there on time, but I did get to see Tim Tebow though so it was all worth it hehe. I'm so happy they won the National Championship. I swear Sam is like the ultimate fan. I kid you not he cries if they lose. I joke that if they would have lost I would be single because Sam throw himself off a cliff.

It was so cold to be the "Swamp".

I wonder if Tebow is as great as he seems hehe

I hate this picture, but its the one Sam likes go figure

Also I have a book to recommend to everyone.

Twilight, yes I know, aren't you a little old for that but it really is such a good book(s). I fell in love with them over Christmas break and everyone I know who has read them has got addicted. I am not a sci-fi person but I love a good love story and it was def. that.

Things are...

looking up. I was so down the pass the first week when everything went wrong. The following week I went to a Casting Crowns concert with my bestfriend and that was so the lift I needed. You know the voice that reminds you that God has his' reasons. Turns out he does. I'm now taking all online classes, which works out because I dont have to pay outrageous prices for gas and I didnt have a car until a few days ago. I'm going to go get my LPN first then transfer into RN after. The college for LPN is only 10 mins from my house compared to an hour and 15mins. Its just like s door closed and a window opened. Don't get me wrong this isn't my first choice at things but it is a great second choice. Right now things are nice.

The Gators beat Georgia which Sam and I loved, mom not so much lol. Sam left a few weeks ago to go work in Mississippi but hes coming home for Thanksgiving at least. I love this time of year. Summer is my favorite season but I love all the holidays this time of year. Can't wait for Thanksgiving and Christmas.

The worst week

I have had the worst week. Wens. day I failed out of my RN program because of one math test you had to make an A on and I didnt. So that alone has turned my world and plans upside down. Then today I had blood work done about 9am. Well my blood pressure was 150/97, so I was already not feeling well. Then was headed to school to take a mid-term. Ate something while driving on the way to school, and started to feel sick. Well then I started throwing up in 4 lanes of traffic. At first it wasnt bad, I had a bag in my car and got sick in it. Then I started to get really sick. I was trying to find somewhere to pull into to but I was in the left lane trying to get over with traffic crazy. I looked down for a second, out of instinct, to get sick and before I knew it BAM! I wrecked into the back of a silverado. I was balling at this point. The guys in the truck were so incredibly nice. They thought I may have been pregnant because they saw me throwing up before I hit them. Then my door wouldn't up. So that made me even more upset. The police officer got it open for m though. I finally calmed down enough to call my mom who was way past hysterically scared. It was my first accident and I was an hour away. She got there in 30 mins lol. The EMT came and at the time I was so shaken up, I really wasnt hurting and didnt want to go to the hospital. On the way back home though I started hurting in my hand. I went and got it checked out and they think I jammed or fractured it. Its swollen big time, and is wrapped up, with my holding a tape roll, so it can support my thumb. I go in the morning to get x-rays to see whats wrong with it for sure, and to get back my lab results. My car is totaled. All it did to their truck was bend down the bumper a little. Both airbags deployed, mine busted my lip open and I have whip lash but I got lucky. I swear the devil is really trying me this week. I'm feeling very tested at the moment. I know God has a plan though. I know I just have to believe & pray and put it in God's hand. I'm going to go lay down and try to feel better. lovelovelove -Courtney

The end result.....

*Seemed like the perfect lyrics*

Rodney Atkins- Going through hell

Well, you know those times when you feel like
There's a sign there on your back.
Says: "I don't mind if you kick me;
"Seems like everybody has."
Things go from bad to worse:
You think they can't get worse than that an' then they do.
You step off the straight an' narrow,
An' you don't know where you are.
Use the needle of your compass,
To sew up your broken heart.
Ask directions from a genie,
In a bottle of Jim Beam an' she lies to you.
Well, that's when you learn the truth:
If you're goin' through hell,
Keep on goin'.
Don't slow down:
If you're scared don't show it.
You might get out,
'Fore the devil even knows you're there.
Well, I've been deep down in that darkness,
I been down to my last match.
Felt a hundred different demons,
Breathin' fire down my back.
An' I knew that if I stumbled,
I'd fall right into the trap that they were layin', yeah.
But the good news is there's angels,
Everywhere out on the street.
Holdin' out a hand,
To pull you back up on your feet:
The one's that you been draggin' so long,
You're on your knees; you might as well be prayin'.
Guess what I'm sayin':
If you're goin' through hell,
Keep on goin'.
Don't slow down:
If you're scared don't show it.
You might get out,
'Fore the devil even knows you're there.
Yeah, if you're goin' through hell,
Keep on movin'.
Face that fire:
Walk right through it.
You might get out,
'Fore the devil even knows you're there.
Oooh.
Instrumental break.
If you're goin' through hell,
Keep on goin'.
Don't slow down:
If you're scared don't show it.
You might get out,
'Fore the devil even knows you're there.
Yeah, if you're goin' through hell,
Keep on movin'.
Face that fire:
Walk right through it.
You might get out,
'Fore the devil even knows you're there.
Yeah, you might get out,
'Fore the devil even knows you're there.
Yeah.
Ooh, ooh ooh.
Oh.

How bad is it doc?

So I went to the doctor friday to find out about my blood pressure. See high blood pressure runs on my dad's side of the family and on my last visit my blood pressure and heart rate was ridiculously high. Turns out the doctor thinks I have blood pressure from stress of nursing school(go figure). He told me I have no reason to stress, I started laughing.

Or that I could I have hypothyroidism. Which is an underacting thyroid. I'm hoping its that seeing that I have alot of the symptoms, like severe fatigue which is a big problem I have. Plus the doc tells me it sounds like I have a heart murmur, which I did when I was a baby, but the doctors said I grew out of it. Anyways I go thursday to get lab work to see whats going on. Every since friday I have been diagnosing myself and noticing every little thing like I'm have mad cow disease or something lol. Hopefully I'll finally get some answers. I'm 19 and my body is falling apart hahaha. Besides that everything is going pretty good. School is probably the hardest thing I've ever did, but God is getting me through it =)

Is this what I'm in for?

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Philippians 4:13 KJV

The past two days I've been going to orientation for nursing school. Let me tell you I'm already stressed out! I've been having to go behind the college and fix pretty much everything because of course its my stuff that gets screwed up. I have a test in a week and 4 chapters to read before then on it. Also 3 chapters to read before monday.

In two days I've learned I can't procrastinate anymore. Which I admit is a bad flaw of mine. I'm going to eat, sleep, and live nursing school. That the only people that really know what I'm going to go through is classmates and nurses. Oh and I have to wake up super early which is the worst for me because I'm such a night person.

Sorry for complaining, I'm sure there will be more though hehe. I'm scared and stressing, but also very excited and happy. I got into nursing because I have a huge passion for helping people, plus the pay isn't bad ;) Really though it was when I my Nana fell and hit her head that I decided that this is what I wanted my career to be. All my family had went to watch the fireworks on 4th of July and left my Nana home because she didnt want to go. We came home to find my Nana on the floor with her head busted open. She had tripped and hit her head pretty bad on a chair. I was shocked that I just jumped into what to do. I remember telling everyone else what to do for some reason, and shocking enough it was actually right. That moment made me realize I'm ok at this and I like comforting and helping people. I'm ready to see what I'm getting myself into. I'm going to get through this I know, its going to take alot of work though. I have to go read some now lol. ♥ ♥ ♥

A thought shared

"But You O God Do See Trouble And Grief; You Consider It and Take It In Hand."
-Psalm 10:14NIV

Tonight at work me and a co-worker got to talking about alcohol. Now while I don't drink, I have no problems with others doing it. In fact all my friends, but my bestfriend do drink. My only thing is just don't drink and drive. Jennifer, the co-worker, asked me why me and my boyfriend don't drink. He has other good reasons besides mine that he doesn't. I don't drink though because my mom's bestfriend, my Aunt Jill. Her daughter,Kara, got killed in a drunk driving accident at 16 months. My mom was standing there and told Jennifer the story.
See my aunt had been trying to get pregnant for years, and finally did a month after my mom did with me. I was due in July and Kara in August. She was a premature though so the first year of her life she was on oxygen. Well Kara finally got healthy and was doing good. On Christmas Eve my aunt, uncle, and Kara where on the way home from Aunt Jill's mom's house. It was a dirt road and my uncle Kim was driving in front of Aunt Jill and Kara. After a minute he noticed there was no headlights in his rear view mirror. He turned around to see what was wrong and found my Aunt and Kara wrecked into another car. He had to leave my Aunt and rush Kara to the hospital, since they were in the middle of nowhere. He actually had to cut her out of her car seat. I couldn't imagine. My aunt went to one hospital and Kara to another. Two days later Kara died in the hospital. My Aunt Jill didnt even get to say goodbye because she was still recovering. The sick SOB who ran into them drunk lived. In fact that wasnt his first accident. It was his FOURTH! He did a few years in jail, got out and got into I believe 3 other wrecks drunk before going back to jail. Now he's out and isn't allowed to drive a motor operated vechicle. Can you believe that!?!?!? Thats it, all he got.
I don't remember Kara, but I do know her parents very well and know its something they deal with everyday. My aunt went on to have two boys who are 16 and 12 now. I believe they truely are gifts from God. It just amazes me at people who drink and drive. I don't get it. I'm not trying to preach. I just want others and myself to realize to be responsible. I didn't want this to be a sad post, but I wanted to share. Like they say you drink, you drive, you lose.